under the dark night sky....

BLOG!~~! *phew*

finally I have some time to myself... its fun when everybody keeps calling you out to do stuff, hang out with them, chill out in the cafe and have fun...

but really, you just gotta have some time alone, to pen down your thoughts and sort out all the stuff you have to do, plan your week and spend some quiet time staring into blank space and thinking.... stuff...

... It has been really lonely without Dominic.... sometimes, I wonder if he feels the same way too... looking under the cold, dark, night sky...

I guess he's enjoying that freedom....

But... the vacuum inside me grows... it eats me up like an insatiable monster...

I just... I just want somebody who will really, truly love me...

I just want.... I don't know... somebody like me?...


Its wierd, when you think of it... Falling in love with your own self..
narccisistic in a way.
But I think the ideal boyfriend would be somebody who would have been able to do everything I did...

Able to hold me close, to defend me if ever needed... To silently hold my hand while looking into the night sky...
Send me mushy love messages... Surprise me with funny stuffs... Hold me close to him when I cry...

I don't know... should there even be a criteria?..

All I know is that... If I ever have somebody close again... I'll make him the happiest person alive...

because... I only ask in return what I can give...


I can't ask for the world,
but I know, I can give the world to the person I love...


for now, I just don't want to think... everything is so confusing... 3 people asking me out at one time?

and there's another one that is just so sweet...


... I guess, I'm wanted after all... but my heart is still bleeding really badly, and the vacuum isn't helping either...

I'm so scared I'll just go on the rebound....

I lost my love.... I don't want to lose my close friends too....